racing for time
Saturday, July 30, 2005
11:37 AM
ok, so on the second day of the camp, we basically did rafting and kayaking...damn fun lohz! de raft must be built by ourselves...using 4 barrels and abt 6 poles and a surfboard....for kayaking i paired wif wei jie, cuz mus boy-girl ma, den he got kayak before somemore....haha, damn funny.later, we mostly did stuff to boost team spirit, lyk jumping rope 2gether and thinking how to solve problems la...quite mundane..
haha, den in the evening got camp fire, we had to dance lohz, class by class...tt was the most hilarious, its not everyday u get to see ur student conduct and cca president dance swan lake around a fire...stil cant get tt funny image outta my brain..hehehe...kks, but too bad, we stil got to wash the toilets cuz got strong competition...sheesh, so the 3rd day basically wash de toilets...
ur noe?? de guys toilets were almost totally clean, whereas the girls were lyk some kind of war zone area, lyk we have been living there for 3 years and not 3 days...super filthy...funny, should b de other way round...haha, dun tell me de guys dun go toilet ah, den where they pee??
haha. question for the day...
exhausted la...
Thursday, July 28, 2005
1:44 PM
hihi... after 3 days 2 nites at the sec three camp...feel lyk dying...aching all over..first day, we had flying fox, where u had to climb up a tower about five stories high...den have to jump off a tiny piece of wooden platform jutting out ot the top of e tower..not bad la..u can see all ur frens tiny as ants below u....damn scary....den i jumped off, more lyk step off into nothingness...fall...and fall...den i slide down a piece of wire, haha, after the inital burst of shock, its very exhilarating , cuz u really feel like flying!!next, we did high elements and rock climbing, de rock wall got so many missing o[pieces..den very hard climb lohz....Y DUN THE GOVERNMENT REPAIR IT??? diaoz...den let all de ppl suffer in there, struggling to pull ourselves up den finding no hand grips cuz it has broken off? there's jus lots of holes in de wall...y rock wall/ should b hole wall instead//haha
the high elements not much better, i had to balance on a thin piece of wire with only four strings to hold on...ahhh, nearly fell off...haha, but john got stuck up there...very funny, den he lyk holding on to some suspended tyre hanging in the air, lyk hoding for dear life...funny...haha, but he managed come down in de end..so very good...(clap...clap)
next ...the nature ramble...we had to run along a beaten track for 500m..den, haha..go down a muddy river, made to SIT in the river..LIE down in the river...face up and face down, til we're completely WET and muddy...den a 10 s water fight will commence..hehe, tts not de bad part...wet and muddy, we continued on the trail, to find more mud....as black as charcoal..den damn sticker and smelly, we had to slap mud on each other til we're ALL covered in mud , or else cannot go back to camp...but it was funny la...very FUN!!!
oh my...very tired...i'll continue abt day 2 and day 3 some day ba....wanna slp...cant keep my eyes open...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....hey , u r u stil here...?? i wanna slp le...go away..i look ugly when i slp k?? gd...peace at last...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, er, Y U STIL HERE?? sheesh....cant a person slp in peace?? go away...go away...
haha...becoming more lame le...nitenite ppl..
Monday, July 18, 2005
2:25 PM
stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid mei must have been blind i must have been blind i must have been blind i must have been blind
tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot tt idiot
crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying
alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone
must have been mad to miss him must have have been mad to miss him must have been mad to miss him now i understand now i understand now i understand now i understand i understand
wat a jerk he is wat a jerk he is wat a jerk he is wat a jerk he is wat a jerk he is wat a jerk he is
in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind
only only only only only only only only only only only only only only only only only only only
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad
haiz
Sunday, July 17, 2005
11:19 AM
Update: finished chinese o level oralchinese o level listening
physics killer test
geog tedious test
presenting dreaded eril project(and survived!)
Coming Up: currently preparing history test
maths test
chemistry test
pia-ing eril proposal
things finished: -NIL-
ahhh..so much things..so lil time..
crossing over
2:15 AM
i jus wanna be, the person i wish to be
with no memories of him holding me back within
why cant it be easy to forget him?
I had a dream of him last night when i sleep
of him holding pecky towards him...
i dun noe y i had dis dream
but it really disturbs me
Then i started remembering
the words he used to say to me
his xpression when i caught him looking at me
how nice the feeling was to be leaning on him
and i jus felt lyk crying
but no...i said
there's something inside me
not memories of him
but something stronger that stops me from crying
its me...its me...
finally
i've found myself once again
its no use crying
its over
its over...
life will carry on
i gotta learn to pick up de pieces
and carry on....
my last
Saturday, July 09, 2005
11:31 PM
* my last speech day*
we sang...average..though de guys covered de girls voices..so in all it was a lousy performance...how nice..my last speech day performance...sheesh ...after tt...trooped back to music rm an had pack lunch...haha..sch very poor..giv us pack lunch while de rest have buffet lunch...den rushed to Toa Payoh...to meet kt...felt sad..needed someone to go out wif...so we jus walked around an bought lots of stuff...haha...felt happier...i missed out a lot...havent been on dis kind of girl- outing for e long time...should go out more... i feel as if ppl cares....lyk my troubles r all lifted...
hee...i almost cant wake up today...cuz yester day i went an had a long tok wif xh...an i poured out all my sorrows....relly felt very much better... found tt i've stopped pining for TT GUY....hmm, things r looking up...so dis is how i spent my last speech day performing an shopping....memorable....smilez...
jiu zhe yang4 guo qu le.....time flies
mad=(
10:34 PM
Recently, i browsed tru an old copy of deUS-edition seventeen mag an saw something tt disturbed me a lot...there was dis column abt de mind games guys play, an guys could rite in an contribute...there was dis guy(steven) hu wrote in:"i'll go up to the girl an get her attention wif compliments, then lyk 2 wks later, i'll back off a little an start to act lyk i not interested. this gets her to make some moves so tt i'll come back. Then when we start dating, i'll make feel lyk shes'd de only person on de world, But every now an then, i gotta be a bit mean so she wont walk all over me an she noes wats up"
wat a big fat jerk! Totally selfish an uncaring,NO ONE on earth deserves to be trash an made to BEG for affections...tts so disgrading! Does Guys really think lyk tt?
i dun really understand, if guys r interested in a girl, if they really care abt her feelings and lov her...jus show their real feelings..i think de girl would appreciate it more den being hot a while..an colder...pls, dis method dosent work, it jus gives de girl sleepless nites wondering y in de world her bf is so cold towards her....dun torure us..we have feelings too..jus lyk u guys...
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de girl would feel more secure too...i felt lyk dis too...ahhhh..very damn insecure..lyk falling apart...i dun wanna ezperience it again...its too much for me to bear..
Well, on de other hand, guys say they do tt to gain conrol an prevent de girl fr walking all over them...cuz den they will lose face....but if u think...if a girl purposely walks all over a guy..an dosent care abt his feelings...isnt it evident things dun work out anymore? y pursue dis relationship any longer?
A relationship would only work if both sides respects an care for one another.....so if things dun work out...its much better to let go....xxxx...its difficult an painful..but wat is not meant to be will nvr be...
sigh...i've met guys lyk steven b4..left me clinging to a tiny thread of hope tt he mite call me, tt he mite msg me...but it will NEVER happen( unless a miracle comes..which is lyk a 0.000000000000001% chance..so go on wasting ur life)
ya..den de whole day, i'll be crying cuz i miss him so much, but he lyk heck care me...aw well
i noe its not all my faultz..but i stil miss him quite a bit now..somethines when i'm down, really feel tt i could ignore all his shortcomings an accept him again, jus to go back to all de happy times we shared...but den we would jus quarrel an i'll cry again...Its a vicious an bitter cycle of feelings..
So listen up gals..if EVER, jus assuming u have de misfortune to end up in de same dilemna as me...pls try an break up ba...we'll jus lose out in de end...ya, at first u'll feel lyk dying..u'll cry an miss him an wake up in de middle of the nite dreaming abt him..but is it WORTH it??? to have to try an get his affections? We're not begging for anything..an we deserve de respect..so jus forget de manipulator an hopefully another better guy will come along...(go grab a fren an cry..it will b much better..)
for the guys, never treat a girl lyk dis if u really lyk her..she'll feel used an insecure an ur will end very fast..( not tt i'm cursing ppl or anything..)some of the guys i noetell me they prefer girls tt r understanding, gentle and submissive..i'm not saying tt is a bad thing..but u ppl r gonna have a hard time finding ppl lyk tt. most girls lice in modern world, where both sexes r equal..so its gonna b hard to ask them b submissive..
but i'll to say, anybody can rebell if they lyk, so if ur future gf is submissive, gd for u , but rmb, dun take it for granted, as if u have de right to have a submissivr gf, as if u have de right to control them ..cuz u dun. they r submissive cuz they care an love u for the person u r...htey r submissive cos they CHOSE to, not bcos they have to..so treat them well...so go thank ur lucky stars if u have a submissive gf..u dun deserve it cuz she can be mean if she wants to ...but she didnt..
so..NEVER TREAT DIS BEHAVIOUR FOR GRANTED!!!
whew...sounds easy but its a mammoth task...:(
sad...dis shall be a tribute to all my frens hu helped me to pull tru de difficult time after i broke up...3 ppl i esp wanna thank...kt, ys an xh..thank u ..i lov ur guys so much...w/o ur i'll still b in depression...
last note: repect each other...:)
chinese oral looming
Sunday, July 03, 2005
8:13 PM
Weather forecast: bleak, cloudy an gloomyexpect rain an occasional thunder
also...there's an exceptionally large BLACK cloud looming
its called de O level CL oral....coming in 9 days...for me la
take cover ppl!!
ps: dun forget ur umbrellas,sure to have lots of rain
tts all for today, thanks for tuning in
bb!
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