Tuesday, January 27, 2009
9:50 PM
i'm feeling really stressed up.everything's piling up
actually if i stop to think, there's not much things to stress about.
but the stress just jams there, like some irritating scab
makes me so frustrated. makes me so tired. makes me so lonely.
i wonder if what eugene say that day at vivo is true or not.
and if its true, how m i going to solve this.
i really hate my phone.
and i really hate phone calls..
i just want to be uncontactable for a while. doing things i like.
slacking.
wasting money
just lying there and observing ppl and their activities.
that is what i'll like to do right now.
n more messy stuff
no more to-do lists.
also, maybe all i've been searching for wasn't that special someone
but to be more specific, that special feeling of being loved and cared for.
this is quite hazy. i'm totally unsure of what i'm feeling at this point.
and i have to stop pretending that i'm not a girl
cuz i m one
and its pissing me off
Sunday, January 18, 2009
4:08 AM
today was fun but tiring!in the morning dragged myself to company to attend a training workshop, and to my surprise, i din it really really helpful :)
so much that it helped to change my mentality quite a bit, and i went on the close a few more appointments :)
happy.
became more initiative as well :) printed a lot of company package info and learnt more about networking with ppl :)
its really impt , and i know it'll ( the skill) will serve me well next time.
at night, there's a training session for ME's and above.
it turned out to be this amazing race thing that traces the company's history back .
uber interesting, i was appointed leader which was a huge surprise. but the good thing is that i was so busy running around i din have time to think about how scary that was.
i learnt teamwork and all ba... and maybe the way i "direct" is a bit too serious, maybe i should lighten up :)
we did a lot of running, in my 3 inch heels no less.
took bus to chinatown point, and ran 4-5 streets to get to telok ayer 195.
XD
took really long.
once reaching there, had to t-up the office.
that is the location of ur old office, before we shifted to our present location.
aim is to let us understand the history and visualise how the leaders fought for their success today :)
den had to rush to vivo
den had to rush to orchard where we did a debrief
hanged out with eugene, adrian, xiao ran,xue hua, huiting and a whole bunch of ppl.
finally took cab home with borrowed money from adrian..
lucky pay check day coming.
also, my phone bill is 100 plus this month!
rar...
looking into pfingo, some webbie that says that i can bounce outgoing calls into incoming calls...
hope that helps.. i wanna new phone XD
its uber late/early now
gotta catch some rest
exciting and jammed packed day tml :)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
10:56 PM
have reached another turning point in my career.the first turning point i have successfully changed myself in order to stay ahead.
and i learnt my first precious life skill, phone skills
XD
believe me, i' really terrified of calling ppl, even to the extent of ordering pizza for myself when i'm starving.
now , the second turning point is: will i be able to master public speaking?
as i rise in my ranks daily, i've reached a point where i need to learn how to give presentations by myself, how to inspire my downlines and everything..
a bit scary for the me now.
but mr miao hua and eugene kept telling me, u will never rise above ur own words.
words have power, yup yup...
i need confidence now in order to present. in order to sound like i know what i'm doing.
sound as if my teeth isnt chattering.
bleh..
belief is the key.. so yups, i chiong onwards.
hope, the second turning point will be successful too.
and i recieved something peculiar in my inbox today.
an application for bf
thanks to my dear friend wansing, who's like super random.
she "promoted" me to her guy friend, and even made an application form for him to fill up.
lols..
haha, i feel like i'm running some sorta agency.
she asks me to vet it and if it pass, give him a call for an "interview"
my expression is really O.o
XD
thats what i need ba, humour , heh,
i dun wan a bf now, maybe friends ba
anyways, when i'm more free, i'll type out my thesis on the definition of bf, and show it to wansing XD
but thanks anyway XD
Saturday, January 03, 2009
1:39 PM
so its the new year again..i hit ME before the promotion ended
suddenly feel such a lack of motivation
sighs...
and due to some unseen circumstances, eugene din hit MM :(
so now technically i've broken away from him
unless he can become MM faster den me
thing, is i'm confused.
i'm not sure if i want to continue staying in that company.
i'm not sure if i see as long term la
the more impt on hand now
the delivering of the stocks.
;(
i feel that eugene is distancing
or maybe its purely just me ;(
anyways i aim to be an independent woman, no need to be pampered also can one
but its hard ;(
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