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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

11:09 PM

Counting down !

ok, so the blah days of the week is over! i've endured monday and tuesday ;)

now comes the fun days!
wed and thursday i have lessons til 11.30 am!
den its hop straight over to wayne's house, last two days before he flies on friday..

abit sad..
but excited.
because i'm meeting him again, after a long long hiatus..
since i met him for like 20 minutes last friday?
and den he's in penang sat til monday, tuesday i've my school and tuiton

finally finally free!

amazing how long 4 days can be!

ok, so m looking forward to tomorrow and thursday, finally can relax after being stiff as a rod organized for the past few days..

i made something for him :)
happy, shall not post anything up, or reveal anything til he's safely on the plane, and has marvelled all he wants at whatever i'm giving him :)

haha

but i'm pretty excited about seeing his reaction.
i spent ages...
on it, not just the actual process of it, but the conceptualizing, gathering, and finally making of it .

he had better like it or else! haha, i'm sure he will :)

so i'm pretty excited about giving him the present, but also kinda dreading that moment where he steps into the departure gate.

sometimes, i do run the hypothetical scenario of him leaving in my head..
so as to familiarize myself with the scenario , so i wont cry or anything.
and even if i do, its more or less controlled, because i've " been through it " .
i dun wanna make a scene you see, and i dun want him to leave with more burden then he already has ( he cant be wanting to leave me anymore den i him-i'm sure we're on the same wave!)
and this is to remind myself, yea, life goes on. thats what i spent $510 on an iphone for!
so as to sustain this r/s!

so we've done all the prep we can,skype, check, what's app , check, iphone face time check, discussing of a common time to skype, check, just basically finding ways to communicate.
because communication is the most important.

now the last two days, no more stressing or crying, but to enjoy it the best i can.
thats all :)

lols..
seriously.. i said once again, and i'll say it again.. i'm a total control freak, a perfection-seeker.. ( sometimes it can be downright irritating, and tiring .. even to myself)

oh wells :)

wed and thursday ! :)

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10:53 PM

I guess its really amazing how disciplined you will be to take whatever course of action neccessary to get something you really really want...

lols, i NEVER was an organized, disciplined person..
never ever ever

but now i find myself obessed with planning, organizing, prioritizing, and etc!
oh my goodness..

i've changed !

eh.. not sure if its a good thing.. its nice to slack .. it would be nice to slack and take it easy.
but the france trip is like a do or die kinda thing...

I must must must go this year! because next year i'll be dying from school work..

and next year, saving up to give myself a surprise on my 21st birthday! :)

saving up for my car too ..
lots of things to do! starting my business.. that has been on standby for pretty long..

been giving tution once a week, working at sunflower at least two days per week, trying to balance the increasingly difficult tschool work, and trying to prioritize some time for wayne because it'll be 2 years roughly the next time he is back for good ...

and after all that, at night, when i'm dead tired, i've to be nice to myself.
by doing things i like,
like reading books/newspapers, or making some crafts,window shopping online or pampering myself with face masks, feet masks, nice food, etc..

rar...
roxanne charged up ..

but tired ...
i know.... no choice.. i really really really really really really really wanna go to France! Like i said, wayne being there is an extra huge bonus, but a bonus nonetheless ..

so alrights! its not like he owes me for going or whatever.. in a r/s, there is no oweing i believe, its either you do it, or you dun .
and its either you're happy with what he's doing/ or you're happy with how much you're doing
its like econs eh.. deman vs supply

haha!!

to france , straight ahead! Full speed! XD

and when i'm there, i'll enjoy it fully, because i've paid my dues, and i totally 101% deserved all the fun i will get there.

Hooting Mania!

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Monday, September 27, 2010

12:31 PM

I'm selling these whimsical Owl slingbags.

If anyone is interested, do drop me a mail at wetwinz28@hotmail.com or tag on my tagbox with your email. thanks!

i've two in stock now .

Design 1)

Hoot a Loot Owl Slingbag

-comes with drawstring and velcro closure
- Zip compartment behind
-Fully washable
-no 2 pieces are ever the same
-100% handmade
Interested parties please contact me at wetwinz28@hotmail.com

Hoot a Loot Owl Slingbag

Design (2)

-comes with drawstring and velcro closure
- Zip compartment behind
-Fully washable
-no 2 pieces are ever the same
-100% handmade
Interested parties please contact me at wetwinz28@hotmail.com

Free postage if confirm within 24 hrs !

normal postage + $1

Distractions

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12:23 PM

Hmmm, recently there are too many distractions in my Life .

Iphone,
Wayne.
the sudden influx of freedeom to do/download/buy almost anything i want online and offline..

bad ...

i need to stop and think and recalibrate myself to my priorities.
Studying ..

my future etc.

Having wayne in my life is exciting, fun, interesting , enjoyable.
but i guess when the obsession level reaches a certain point, its time for me to step back?
unhealthy, because my center is all wrong .
having him in my life is supposed to enrich it, not become solely focused on him.
He didnt ask me to, it just sort of became that way silently.
and now he's leaving soon, if i dun recalibrate myself fast, i'm gonna be hurt big time, because there's no way the level of emotional closeness will be the same long distance as it is when he's here in Singapore.
so bottom line, i've got to start taking care of myself more.

sighs ..
why cant things just be more clear cut? but still , its nobody's fault, not even my own .

i just lost track of things for a minute.
and now i've realized what's wrong, i'll be back up , preppy and ready in a heartbeat.

:)

Randoms ala reasons

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Friday, September 24, 2010

3:34 AM

Crazy ( random) Reason ( about anything under the sun) #49:

i like being attached because :

- i can finally dig out all the dresses/new clothes/ accessories that i have bought long long ago, but have no occasion to wear out.

:)

passing of time

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1:25 AM

School work has been getting quite tough all of a sudden, especially for Econs. I can no longer put off studying the different subjects if i want to even understand what's going on in lessons...
oh wells.
right now, my life consists of a few elements that makes up my regular rhythm.
work at sunflower-study at school-meet wayne- meet up with other friends-give tuition
haiz.. haha!
got my Iphone and have set up most of the items in it!
The apps are really distracting.. plus the urge to facetime wayne, and skype people is overwhelming!

haha, luddite roxanne has finally converted to an apple slave :)

Totally didn't see that coming! This will prob be my most expensive phone for a long time!
$480 for the phone + $36 /month for a 12GB data plan..

lols!
haha, the only reason i got it was because it could enable me to communicate with wayne when he's in France more cheaply i guess :)

He just got his Iphone too! XD happies :)

happy that this r/s is going well and all, and now both of us are broke.. from buying the phone, haha! XD

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wansing's birthday is tomorrow! will be celebrating it with her tomorrow!

was supposed to meet with wayne.. but oh wells.. best friends come first! Though i cant say i'm not sad...
:(

anyways, had a really fruitful outing with wayne today!
Lots of quality moments and pictures :)

had wanted to go to the mid-autumn festival at clarke quay, but realized that they had taken down EVERYTHING just after one day..
boo!

so walked around clarke quay a little den went on to Shatec's outlet restaurant, Charcoal for a 4 course meal at $25/ person!

Great food! Great Service! Nice company, :)
went to tampines to collect some notes that wayne had helped me to print before setting back home again :)
while walking along anderson bridge , we saw this group of stunts people climbing up the bridge.

here's a picture of them sliding down the top part of the bridge.. lols.. can you imagine!

it seemed so easy to them ..

more next time, gotta go to bed.. realized that my skin looks horrendous when i dun sleep enough!

Its been some time!

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Monday, September 20, 2010

9:30 PM

Time flies , yet it has no wings!

Its been quite some time since i blogged.

what's been happening ?
Many many things.. recently i've been so efficient i'm amazed, work, school, meet wayne, sort out my own life at night
its amazing i've only fallen sick like now!

Everyday i have at least 3 major things to do..

Gah!

so i came back from Krabi, din take as much photos i would have liked to.. partially due to my own carelessness.

Krabi was .. memorable, different, scary , came back a little more jaded and not so childish? XD

haha

perhaps, i guess when you have to wake up to catch your own flights, and make sure your belongings are with you and you are not an easy target for pickpockets you sorta have to act like you know what you're doing.

Even when buying things, it helps to bargain too, so that they wont " eat you " by quoting you ridiculously high prices.
still it was really fun :)

elephant trekking was the highlight of the tours.

shall post more pictures up.

so last week, practically worked 4 full days at sunflower.

a little tired ...
starting to feel as if i'm torn between work, school and wayne.

Wayne's leaving on the 1st of October, early morning..

oh wells, the date's going to come sooner or later..
might as well get used to the fact.

now i'm working at sunflower, and teaching tuition to raise money to go to Paris in Dec.

Hmmm, i 've had people telling me its silly to do so.

but well, my money, and I would really love to travel ..
Plus accommodation is kinda settled for. :)
so y not? :)

ah.. so much things going on. so little time! X)
shall do a more intensive blog post with more details to continue the good work of recording my memories online :)

More soon ! Shall go rest.. been feeling off weather today..
hope i'm not going to fall sick!

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Friday, September 03, 2010

10:06 PM

I feel like the stupidest girl alive.

i have the made the biggest mistake in my life thus far. and it hurts like hell. it hurts a lot.

wayne's disppointment is much more paramount to my own feelings.
i feel damn sheet.

Mished together

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7:41 PM

updating on the Natsu Maturi festival

-its 3rd Sept, and i'll be in Krabi 7am tomorrow! cant believe it , yet my luggage and everything is packed nicely.
supposed to study and do homework but couldnt concentrate , so here goes the pictorial updates for the festival on 21st August!

Yansin woke me up at 11am and we went over to her friend's DK's house, where his girlfriend Red helped us all to put on makeup! Check out the professional range of brushes and palettes.

They have this really fat and cute cat ! XD

Yansin trying to tie her traditional obi! XD she finally got it in the end.
its really difficult to tie!

I like this picture of the boyfriend.

The Cute couple! Don't they look really good together? Guess who's the male and who's the female!

Yansin helping DK to tie his obi and wear his yukata.

Looking pretty in plaits.

Kitty!

Pretty makeup by Red. Lovely yukata by yansin

that concludes the Natsu Matsuri post :)

actually the fun part was in dressing up , and getting in the mood.
it was quite humid walking around wrapped up though!
Its great to see yansin and her friends!

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I'm pretty worried about yansin though... ;(

something happened to her rabbit, stuck in a situation where i want to help but couldnt help.
also, lately feel as if she's sort of drifting away, not sure what to do as well :(

sighs..

a little stressed

School has not been all roses as well. the workload is piling, and i'm still trying to maintain the work-school-life balance...

My Sunflower duties has now been officially cut back to only 2 days a week..

need to start saving money if i were to go to france this dec!

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its 8 pm now, gonna go study a little bit more before leaving for wayne's house in Tampines, where i'm staying the night , and leaving for the airport at 4am.

hmmm, not sure y i'm not feeling excited.. i've been wanting this trip for so long! Its my maiden trip overseas by myself ..

shakes.. i shall not let other things cloud my mind..
i want to enjoy things as best as i can.

what's on my mind now :
school
yansin
wayne + wansing's present

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things that had happened since the festival and now.

Bro's birthday dinner at Heaven's loft
-i gave him the caesar's letter opener
Wayne's birthday dinner at Heaven's loft and the trip to the roof terrace after
Bro bought a spanking new xbox 360 ! ( need to figure out how to use it too :P )