looking back
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
7:13 PM
looking back at my last 2 posts, feel abit guilty.i wasnt in the best of moods and mind, felt quite emo probably due to imblalance of hormones or something. its the end of the month sighs...
tired
but whoo hoo! holiday tml! yippee!
not that i dun have to go to tuition early in the morning .. sobbs
but mugg mugg mugg :)
m in a happy mood now :)
Monday, September 29, 2008
4:59 PM
today has been an upsetting day, feel especially emotional.firstly, the work is piling up, half due to the fact that i started to slack after the getting back of prelim results... oh sheet..
secondly, due to his late night message(actually it was early morning )that troubled me quite abit, and so i lay on my bed in the dark counting sheep.
tired today, almost late for school, but i ran outta house and caught the bus.
i guess i made a few more enemies today, realized the difference between the two warring cliques in my class, i never noticed them until today.
one is helpful, kind, and even if someone in that clique is slower in this subj, others are fiercely loyal and patient. did i mention they're really bright too?
the other bunch is made up of smart, aloof individuals who stick closely to each other ONLY if u're on the same capacity as them. no sharing of notes, no patient guiding, the most is, they will explain once quickly, if u still did not understand by den they will go " eh, but this one very easy one ma? ah never mind la, wont come out one, dun need learn. "
as for me, i'm btw the middle of the 2 "clans"
sighs, and being at the bottom of my straight A high flying class, i'm begining to feel stupid.
peh joo asked if my consultation with mr chew will take very long, i said maybe, cuz it comprises of me, pris, zhengting and shibin.
and den she advised me to ask quickly so that she can ask too.
den i said its ok.
tania butted in and said, oh anyways i bet u'll(pehjoo) have more questions den her.
that hurt me tremendously .
i know, my physics results are bad, i'm at the bottom of my class, but if she could see me trying...i wish i have a mind like hers, or natasha's or aditya's, so that i can see invisible r/s immediately in a blink of an eye.
but no, i'm stupid in science k?
i wish i'd taken art subjects, really i wish..
at least i can score in that..
and no one will look down on me again.
but i guess in the real world, everyone will just look at the results, they wont care how much u've put in, cuz no one can see that.
i almost cried in physics consultation today, i wish i wasnt so badly affected by all this den others.
only den can i put all this behind and just strive on.yesterday's devotional was on doing something over and over until u're good in it..maybe God wants me to learn this lesson.
after pw ended, she's been treating me like some destestable thing.
we used to sit together and talk, i even went to her hostel room before.we used to be friends.
but even den, i felt that she was already edging away.
i'm quite emotional.
i dun understand y she destest me so much.
is it because i'm slower den her in learning?
is it because i cant joke and cheer everyone up in an instant like nicole or the rest of the choir ppl?
or is it because i deal with things differently from her? so what if i'm not a good class rep in her eyes, this is my first major post. so what if i'm not forceful or influential, or fun, as OTHERS class reps may be?
enough comparsion...
liyan could tell her how much i stressed over outings, over collections, over stuff, my only crime was, i was inexperienced but very willing to go the extra mile.
anyways thanks to this post, i've learnt a lot, from the choir trip too, i've learnt how to be a leader, i'm not a natural leader, but i've got the heart, and i think that is enough.
is it a crime to be me? to be quiet?
and when i open my mouth to say something, i'm met with bored looks and nodescript" ok lo"
i hate it i hate it i hate it.
and that's y i hate choir.
not the music but the ppl.
i feel like an outsider in choir.
i dun belong there.
the batch whom i've sang in festa choralis are gone.
stored away in my heart forever.
they dun exist anymore.
i'm just feeling all these grudges at this very moment, i hope time will neutralize them.
i dun want to be a hypocrite, painting some happy face on while hating within.
i'll pray to God to relieve me of these hateful and heavy burden i'm carrying.
i still feel pretty lost and lonely.
but thanks to cai hua and her bunch of friends, whom i feel really comforted and at ease with.
however, i'm working not to depend on them too much for a starter, cuz i know i'll go overboard.
i'm happy overall.
i'm learning more and more abt myself each day, through every occurences,be it happy or hurtful.
i will never be like nicole, who can always think of some funny thing to say, or aditya whose charm works ppl like magic, or joanne who can juggle social and work in a sitting, or sharyl who is always so encouraging.
i'm none of them.
i'm me.
emotional, slow in science, loves drawing and reading, quiet,loves oldies,classics and animations
thats me,
and i'm going to be at peace with myself
because if i'm not, i'll just copy someone else and cry over y no one is accepting me.
if all i do is copy someone else, den who will be toh wan qin roxanne ?
I WISH TO BE ABLE TO LEARN HOW TO
COMPARTMENTALIZE MY FEELINGS BETTER,
AND NOT LET MYSELF BE AFFECTED BY
SNIDE COMMENTS OR LATE NIGHT
MESSAGES THAT TUGS
ON MY HEARTSTRINGS, FOR A START.
toh wan qin roxanne, u will be brave, u can definitely do it.
cuz there are still ppl on this earth who have confidence in u.
have confidence in urself and fly high.
muggle quidditch
Saturday, September 27, 2008
10:17 PM
found this really rad site,interesting called muggle quidditch.;)
might want to google it :)
found this shop that sells actual handmade wooden wands, to the descriptions in the harry potter books, haha, quite interesting :)
rewind
8:35 PM
flah..( a made up word i always use to talk to myself, when i'm in this situation when things seem to go wrong, or is threatening to spin out of control)
my mind is still muddled. but i must MUST CLEAR a levels :)
cuz i know i can do this, God sent me to this level for a purpose. :)
anyways, the lasst post was a tad depressing, i'm in a happy mood now XD
introducing this webbie i found, i love sites like this featuring original artworks and characters that seems to be alive :)
PIXMIX
anyways, my fav darling now is "my fair lady" . i woke up with the tune " the rain in spain falls mainly on the plain" in my head, haha, no more nightmares abt him. ( which is good ), and i proceeded to torrent it, its taking so slow... despite 32 seeds, cuz it has 900+ MB, for the movie :(
pouts
(sings: the rain in spain falls mainly on the plain ~)
anyways, haha, i feel like watching mamma mia , but there's no one to watch it with, dun know anyone who loves oldies like me.. :(
sad, so maybe shall buy the vcd when it comes out...or maybe dvd, if i've money..
Friday, September 26, 2008
11:42 PM
roxanne is feeling sad and under the weatherwan qin is feeling sad and under the weather
toh is feeling sad and under the weather
3 diff personas.
3 types of ppl call me differently
i wonder who still calls me by my chinese name now
he use to love my chinese name a lot.
i had a nightmare about him yesterday.
i'm surprised to find that i'm still really sore abt this, its the worst kind a girl could have.
in my dream, there was another girl, i woke up with my heart beating madly and i felt cold all over. plus my sore eye is not helping.
it was so real i had to spend 15 mins sitting up in bed and telling myself its not true its not true.
it has nthg to do with anyone else, just the both of us.
:(
i guess its not helping, had the urge to listen to emo emo songs, which did make it worse.
my physics teacher had to ask me abt him as well.
rar..
cant i just move on without reminders?
but i guess i have the capacity to do this this time round, after all i did the same with gerald and jin hern,(and they were in my class ).
feeling so blue..
if there's one thing i never believed even when he told me.
that is that i look good.
i never believed that.
i have a really low esteem.
looking back, all i 've faced are taunts and confidence shattering rumors in rv, i hate rv.
i wanna move on.
i want to feel and believe i'm beautiful too, at least when i'm by myself and looking at my reflection in the mirror.
i dun love myself.
i dun think i can love anyone yet.
:(
stacy said i looked good in light shirts.
i went to tuition in fbt and a white shirt
i wore specs today, felt my nose was so oily, and that my specs kept sliding down.
she commented i never looked better.
really?
maybe i'm really under the weather..
honours night and some reflection
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
10:42 PM
honour's night have come and gone, another milestone of my j2 have just flown by like that.
pretty nostalgic,getting to sit and chat with my fellow choir mates, feeling all the uneasiness rise up again. (feeling a sense of inferiority yet again.)
aditya went on stage, joanne went on stage. valedictorian, top LKY scholarship holders, multiple leadership roles under the wing with a fabulous academic record to boot.
what have i been doing this past 2 years besides choir?
do i even want to spend my life singing? and being known as the girl who loves to sing(when i dun really love it now, i'm not sure..)
i'm being paranoid and illogical.. its been a long long day..
i could do with some rest.
mostly, i'm jealous..i'm like on level one, and they are already high into the clouds..
aditya's dad came from bombay to see his son on the principal's honor roll.
i'm glad for him, i guess that's the last i'll be seeing of aditya, of jano, of christianto...(they're being accepted left and right into cambridge, oxford and the likes..)
i feel like crying, like my two years in jc have just ended like this, so much that i still want to achieve, still want to explore, still want to experience..
i'll miss them lots, even though i would rather have my front teeth pulled out den admit in front of them.
i wish 2 sa2 will be able to stay together in spirit, even though we will be scattered throughout the world next time, i hope that when they think back of our class, they will remember the chalet, the fun we had, the toils we went through together..
i feel really sad..
not forgetting, i find them i'm starting to possess the capability to make friends, to press on even if i'm feeling tired, ill etc.
base line, what i feel, others cant feel, so even if i'm so tired i'm gonna drop dead, i dun look like it usually, so if i brush ppl off just because i give up on socialising internally, i'll never make any friends.
i had my first girlie outing in like how long. went with nat and cai hua to King's albert park for macs at night, after the gp mock paper..
cant remember when was the last time i went out with more den a single girl.
i went out with rowena one to one in pri sch, kai teng one to one up til now, yan sin one to one in sec sch.. thats all, that consists of my closest and dearest friends.
rar.. i'm not sure why i'm making it so hard for myself to have girlie friends, hang out and gossip abt how mean guys are, and which teachers say the funniest things. but i'm slowly achieving that.
i find that if i stop thinking abt something, like purposely trying to make friends, or consciously thinking not to fall during honor's night, the worst will often come true, JUST like MURPHY'S LAW
really tired, not sure whether all this makes sense, but i've gotta type this out or else i cant sleep.
:p
my first proper LBD
Sunday, September 21, 2008
7:57 PM
the forever 21 spree has ended, and i went to city hall to collect my loot today, bought this convertible bra that lets u wear it in 5 diff ways, quite a steal at less den sing ten dollars, plus this dark denim skinnies ( which is not too skinny), andnot forgetting , my LBD!here's a pic of it :)
i look quite nice in it, tho i'm a bit disappointed, cuz the neckline is a little too low, i had wanted to buy this classic black dress, so i can wear to prom, dinners, weddings, family gathering and what nots, but maybe not now. cuz my relatives are a bit conservative, or maybe its just me who's conservative?
anyway the thought of dressing quite sexily to, say, cny gatherings, and the aunties and uncles will come and talk to u say, wha, so fast grow up already ah? got bf or not?
no thanks..
maybe might buy another one that is more prim and proper,and yet still classic and timeless.
however, this 3 loots din come cheap, the shipping is horrendously expensive, i paid 75 dollars in all, O.o
works out to abt 25 dollars per piece...
ookkay la.. the dress looks like an 80 dollars dress, so in a way, sorta good deal... sorta..
good thing is i could fit into all of them, the sizing guide is accurate, tho for the skinny jeans, its a bit loose, should have bought a size looser, but it hangs nicely on my hip bone, tho around the rear, its loose.
haha, who wants to see my rear anyway, and the extra fabric mades it really comfy to squat up and down, unlike my other grey skinny, which is snug when i wear it HUNGRY, but painful when i finish eating cuz its so tight. XD
all in all, ok
bought 3 harry potter books as well, for 4 dollars each, second hand of cuz, but i dun mind, i want to collect the whole set :)
so now, i'm waiting for my shoe spree (ordered 3 pairs of shoes), old navy spree (one classic tunic), and cutie spree,( 2 singlet cum tunic cum dress)
CRAP... M GOING BROKE.. SAVE MONEY AH...saving abt 20 dollars a week, half my weekly allowance.. but sometimes feel really quite hungry, there u have it, why i'm so skinny XD
the balloon project
Saturday, September 20, 2008
4:50 PM
balloon mania!
the balloon project is done by a group of innovative experimenters who tied a video cam to a bunch of balloons and chased it down across countries. the result? beautiful videos of the earth XD
click 'balloon mania' to go to their website.
there are some clips on youtube as well. search le petit balloon project
12:50 PM
WARNING ! THIS IS A REALLY LONG POST, READ AT YOUR OWN PERIL XD
lols, another week has passed. quite a lot has happened.
yesterday the whole of my estate was kinda buzzing cuz the PAP pulled out quite a lot of "tricks" to persuade the members of the estate to vote for lift upgrading.
there were free macdonald's every half hour and live getai shows.
since it was so noisy that i could even hear the woman warbling in my toilet, i went down to see what's happening, cant study anyways..
filmed some of the performances before my cam batt ran out.
haha, it was quite nice, especially this oldie called wo de xin li zhi you ni mei you ta.
afterwards went to kt's house where i did some physics questions til abt 11 plus, and played with her sister's hamsters a bit before leaving for home.
before i reached home yesterday, had a not so eventful day, was quite blur the whole day, and i tot i looked really haggard because of not enuff sleep and the upset of (whatever) hormones there were. after sch, continued doing physics and went for "the lucifer effect" gp enrichment talk.
it was really disturbing,mainly its on the definition of evil, and how studies have shown that anyone, has the capacity and ability to turn evil like hitler.
due to the fact that we are prone to compartmentalise evil and good( haha, links to mass media, this is why top selling books an movies have a clear good/evil theme so ppl can identify with it)
we tend to be distant from evil saying that " that person is bad, i will NEVER be like him/her etc.." which is y we're likely to become evil, cuz we have this narrow conception of evil, like killing, murdering, and not skipping class and whatever. when we do bad things we "rationalise things" such as " he/she made me do it/i had no choice/ i really tot i was doing something for the greater good etc etc.. "
we were shown this clip from the Stanford prison experiment(1971), it was so chilling how role playing is so dangerous as ppl started to blur simulation with reality, and how items like badges create authority instantly. anyways the pschological effect on the "prisoners" and the alarming escalation of the degree of abuse from the "guards" was so bad, the experiment was pulled off in 6 days instead of the intended 2 weeks.
the lecturer cross referenced this to the abu grahib prison in iraq, and i was so stunned and disturbed at all the similarities. if the stanford experiment had continue for longer, i bet it might be similar to that of abu grahib's situation.
he also explained the role playing bit, on how it makes a person feel worthy by feeding on the person's desire to be appraised.so the "guards" will do their best to control the "prisoners" using any sort of perverse and humiliating methods just so because they're "guards" and must therefore play their roles well, totally forgetting that their "prisoners" are fellow classmates. ( process of compensation)
also playing a huge part in this, is the annoymity effect and dehumanisation process, such as calling the "prisoners" by numbers and showing them that their authority.
cross referencing to all the maid abuse cases, if employers see them as less of human, and more of bought help, they will treat them less humanely, and prob be riled when they do something wrong, like make a whole in their fave shirts. the process of dehumanistation continues until they're seen as "the enemy", and they no longer care abt their fate anymore, since they are convinced that these ppl are going to be against them at all times, so they had better do something fast to squash them.
THE LUCIFER EFFECT
we were also shown this picture
MC Escher's circle limit IV
it seems to show that there is really a thin line between good and evil . origns of inspiration from the fact that lucifer was once a angel before he fell and became satan.
i see bats initially , while my friend sees angels at first glance. lols, haha, prob i'm more pessimistic , and focus on the black areas first.
rar.. i really must change that. so what do YOU see ? :P
interesting yeah?
anyways, i finally brought out my camera. to me, the trees and landscape outside my school's bus stop have always intriuged me somehow, but i dun dare to whip out my cam and snap a pic, lest ppl think i'm mad to take trees ( like hello, singapore is full of them.. what's special kinda-look) so yep, i let the pictures talk for themselves, plus some pictures along the way home as well :)
(above 4) my school :)
(above 11) near my house :)
(for this above picture,the original size is fanstastic, i can zoom in to see the tiny veins on the bird nest's ferns, haha, but i had to resize it cuz it'll take uber long to load all this photos which ate at least 2mb each... O.o)
( in this photo, the two boys were play fighting initially, they looked really pretty for ang moh ppl, high nose bridges, bright blue eyes and all , but when i snapped this pic, at that moment they stopped. sighs, it'll be nicer to catch them play-fighting,more action mahz XD)
(above 7, bus stop outside my school )
i wish i had a camera with a wider lens, so its more panoramic.. or is that skill? my skills not too good yet.. :(
my dad was a brillant photographer.. wish that i can be like him one day :)
haha, this is a freaking long post.. back to physics ppl, toodles.
fell down
Friday, September 12, 2008
10:29 PM
went to bathe in a rushas i came out of the bathroom, stepped too quickly on the mat and fell down.
rah...
time to tell mom to buy non-slip ones... :(
feels like my right elbow is sorta dislocated. it was so pain, i sat on the floor for a quite long after falling, mouth opening in pain, but dun dare to make a sound, as if it will aggravate the pain i felt.
now, i stuck on a salonpas patch, tho it may not help, the mint-ness helps to numb the joints for a while..
tired..
prelim results
8:52 PM
and yet another milestone of my j2 life is goneprelim results recieved
its not good, not good at all..
failed chem and physics(which is kind of expected, but really painful...i really studied, i tot i stood a fair chance of passing... but no..)
my lang papers are much better, (of course..)
econs i got a C, gp i got a D, both before moderation.
physics is 42 % before mod, and chem is 31 % before mod...
i'm so so dead...
mum is going to slaughter me
after all that expensive chem tuition..nthg seems to come out of it.
there are so many pages with crossed out marks and zeros littering the place..
my hopes were lifted and dashed and lifted again, as i got back paper after paper, part after part.
econs looked promising, with a 45 out of 75 for essay, the highest i ever got, den after closer scrutinzing, if i had passed my last essay, ( i only got 12 out of 25, the other tow i got 17, and 16..). for econs paper one, if i had pssed my second case study, i got 22 for the first one! quite shocked...
maths was a low 49
i feel like banging my head somewhere..
i stoned since i went home at 4... wasted time online, ate ben and jerry's ice cream.. shopped online to waste more time, skip dinner.
so now, my head is constricting so much it feels like bursting.
i like to punish myself.
no dinner.
i'm really tired, feel rather weak, maybe its the dinner thing...
maybe i'll eat a bit..
sad sad sad...
if i haven tried so hard in preparing for prelims.. i wouldnt feel so sad..
what went wrong?
Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrows keep you Human,
Failures keep you humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
Only God keeps You Going!
Intellectual growth
should commence at birth and cease only at death.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
8:07 PM
smile and the world smiles with ucry and u cry alone.
but right now, all i wanna do is curl up and cry
i dun care if i'm alone.
i've always been mostly anyways.
it doesnt matter anymore.
not now
its like my heart is tearing again.
i wan nothing to do with him anymore...
he makes me feel bad.. feel like i'm a little girl, feel like i'm being reprimanded. like i'm in the wrong...
Thursday, September 04, 2008
9:35 PM
i'm more affected by the twilight saga den i thought..its a lonely night, and i'm losing my purpose and goal and vision. like a blind person moping around the house, it feel pathetic, and i'm rather reluctant to turn off the modem, at least i'm still sorta connected to someone out there somehow.
i'm going to try to get some work done and stop thinking abt everything :(
the end of the twilight saga
10:16 AM
i read like a mad man possessed and finished the 3 thick fat books in one and a half days. i'm not sure what drew me to it so passionately and madly, but i can come up with a few reasons.i'm rather emotional , and is still recovering from a break that i thought would last forever, and the stuff in those books probably satisfied my side of emotions that i yearn for.(at least its better seeing what one girl getting what she want through the detailed desciption den to not experience anything at all)
reading the saga gives me something to do, some purpose in this few days, to finish them, to feel the emotions that i so want to feel.
ok, so now its the detaching time.
i cried last night,( i tend to subconsciously live out a book or a film after i'd seen them, recognizing with certain quirks bella has, trying to live them out, and getting frustrated if they dun.i called him, and yea, he's moved on, like i thought. thank goodness my phone batt went dead. its not awkward, but u could feel there's nothing to say anymore. just hanging on and not really feeling like hanging on, but we both cant bear to hang off, ok, at least for me.. )
la, i can do this , i wll not be affected by any random book or tv series again...
i muist remind myself that they are fake, they are conceived by a man's mind, such ppl and event DO NOT happen, haha, sounds simple and duh, but my mind cant take it.i'd still like very much to believe that all this is real,(just like harry potter, to some extent, so maybe its more dangerous to read this kind of books and stuff)
edward is too perfect, is too nice, too loyal too steadfast and one minded.
he has only eyes for bella which is , really fake in reality.
that's y the book is selling cuz ppl will like to believe that he's plausible.
he will never ever exist.
he also allows bella to be amazingly clingy, which will definitely be out of the question on earth, if u still want to keep ur guy, at least that's what i think.
also, he doesnt change, no matter what bella does, he doesnt change the way he views her, and of cuz this is nevre true in real life.
for eg if u're really bad at sports, the ball will be passed to u, cuz ppl learn that if they do so, they're team will lose.
some thing like that.
i'm feeling a bit more stable as its morning. always feel more disoriented and lonely and night, the silence can be quite piercing.
i'll be ok.
i thought abt shutting my blog cuz a certain old friend was alerted to my gloomy predicament recently, and i'm not comfortable with the whole world being able to know how i feel and judge me from there, like i'm sick poor soul who's pitiful.
but still, i cant help i'm overreacting, sorry G.
i'm not too good with situations like this, i need to think, i'm still too defensive from my rv days, and too sceptical and suspicious.
haha, in the end, i decided this blog will stay open.
say what they want, i will not bend my blog to fit anyone, its mine, and i never badmouth ppl here, so it shouldnt concern them.
and it makes me feel better, throwing all my troubles ino the blogosphere, its like a rebellious streak, cuz these things should be kept inside, yet i'm petulantly tossing them out, like a virtual dustbin, and it calms me to some extent.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
6:45 PM
books i've been reading
~what i'm up to during the sept hols :)
i've just read these three books yesterday ;) twilight was amazing! now i know why its made it to the best selling list, and whats better is, i borrowed the next 3 books in the saga today! i cant wait to sink my teeth into them :) (sorry abt the pun, this series is on vampires :) )
haven read in a long looonnng time haha, i missed the joy of reading, i've forgotten the escape and relief that books bring, but yesterday all the experience came back ;)
i read the lacemaker and the princess, which is this wonderful and imaginative narrative on the clashes between the lives of two very different girls, and it also touches lightly on the "born into your position" view. needs a bit of history to understand the details on revolution better, but i absolutely love the victorian/historia narrative genre.
breathe is a book i wouldnt have touched by myself, but mr lee highly recommended it, althought it looks like a children's book,(yes there are pictures and the type of the word is relatively huge) the way in which the author portrayed and described the ghost were really eerie. it seemed really humanely, the expressions and reactions of the child ghosts who were trapped in a house by this deranged female ghost who went mad after pinning the guilt of the death of her only child on herself.
the way the author described how she fed off the soul-energy of the children were graphic and a little disturbing. of cuz its not too explicit like a good author whot write so, the phrases are fast and flowing and subtle enough for u to understnad what's going on, and realise to your horror what the ghost mother is doing ( thats what the woman is called in the book )
a fascinating read.held me spell bound.
and now ta da! introducing the rest of the twilight saga, i'm really excited, and cant wait to start reading. there's something scary abt me, if i'm really excited abt a book, i can read it in a sitting, that's what happened during the harry potter craze. XD
i read twilight in 5 hours, lace maker and the princess in 2 hours and breathe in 2.5 hours. XD
what's scary is the next 3 books are deliciously fat and enticing. which means i could be up all night polishing them off :)
during reading, i wont move from my spot, except to turn the pages continously, i wont eat, drink or watever, its quite scary, just ask my mom :P
and pendragon book 9 is out!
gonna grab it soon
and keys to the kindom: superior saturday is out!
and the newest book of the edge chronicles is out as well..
haha
busy busy busy hols.. XD
i so love prelims, cuz ITS OVER!!! XD
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I love the color YELLOW, though i don't wear it.
I love clowns, frogs, polka dots, and whimisical brollies.
I love olden english, the Victorian era, and am a steampunk fan.
I love good architecture, classic designs, photography, and arts and craft.
I am a die hard Romantic and I love doing things with people I love.
It is my ambition to be a businesswoman , and my childhood dream to be an air stewarddess.
75% unpredictablilty 20% steadfastness, and 5% craziness
Hello. my name is (Roxanne),and this is my online diary.
I am random and fickle like the wind.
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