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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

5:50 AM

haiz
i;m being emotional again
but still, i feel like crying
recently, i've always felt as if i;m losing bits and pieces of myself to certain events
feeling the raw hole inside
i always end up hurt
cuz i place my disappointments and hopes on ppl
mere ppl
for example, myself
and when i fail
i feel like dying
even more so now
den i can go up to heaven
but thats no right
where is my joy in living
i used to be so happy
wat happened to my lost childhood?
wat happened to my realtionship with God?
i surrender
i declare this a personal red code
i have to study
it seems so cliqued
i've said it a million times
but never actually done it
i wished i was in a neighbour hood school
cuz i'm feeling the stress
among the bests
i'm no best
just me
and yet i know, God allow me to come to this school because he knows i can handle it
really?
i didnt even know i could
out strung
i wish....
God, wat should i do now?
teach me how to do, wat to do, how to start
step by step
my heart is so painful....
Toh Wan Qin Roxanne

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