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Monday, November 01, 2010

4:52 PM

Today ran two errands that took up quite a bit of time .
the first was to collect my Deena and Ozzy booties for Paris from this seller in yishun. Not sure if i still might be going , but still, i've put down a deposit might just get it

second errand is to collect the movie tickets that wayne gave me from Nparks hq

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the collection of booties was quite smooth , just that i think the seller was confused, and i was confused so i din manage to point it out to her in time .

the booties cost $39, deposit was $5, so i messaged her to bring change for $34 because i only had $50 note in my wallet

after i had tried them on and it fits, i passed her the fifty and to my surprise she passed me $34 .. i was a bit confused at so much money, but she seemed to be in a rush, and said that she had to run, leaving me clutching the money there..

so hmmm, technically i paid $21 for the booties,

not bad at all!
wondering if i should email her ..

but she 's the seller and she should check ..
oh wells .

this is called CONSUMER SURPLUS!



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i had a really difficult time locating Npark hq, it was tucked way inside the park ,and i was dressed in jeans, and carrying shopping bags.
plus the noon day sun was unrelenting and merciless, but the time i had walked about 500m, started sweating, it really is scorching ..

had lots of pockets of free time to think things through about this relationship , the same few ideas keep swiming in and out , and also the resolution that, this is a relationship between 2 people. and if one party is not happy.. should voice out. even if it means the demise of the relationship

i so do not subscribe to the old way of thinking among older women, my auntie told me once, dun fight , if you're unhappy, and it doesnt affect you much , den dun voice it .

well..

its not a minor thing anymore ..
i dun see how i can last two years with this half there, and half not there kind of relationship..

i want parameters, clear guidelines, more or less percentage of commitment, trust and love from both sides..
is it so wrong to ask for that?

feeling sad yet independent at the same time .

feeling sad because it seems to be ending when i'm finally adjusting ..
feeling sad because it seems to be one sided to me now
feeling sad because what i see may not be what he sees, or what he wants, or what he's comfortable with giving to the relationship..

feeling sad because i feel like i've lost him on the soul level.

i dun want a boyfriend, i want a soul mate...

yea

soul mate first , den boyfriend.

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enough emo-ing, so i was all hot and sweaty and silently cursing the sun and the ground by the time i reached there..

the doors were all locked.. lols, such security.. there were no signs or what, i had to stand outside the door and wait for their staff to come out so i can go in ! luckily din have to wait too long..
once inside its a whole nother maze , with locked doors and unclear signs.. and had to wait again, finally got inside and i signed for the release of the tickets, lols, there were three pages, but only one other person had collected it so far.

haha !

not surprising , so hard to find the hq!

still, it was an enjoyable retreat into nature. i would love to go to sso's free concert in the park one day.


i was walking when i saw people taking wedding photos and couples spending time in the park, tears din threaten to roll down at one point but i'm sure no one would have seen it if it did because the tears did not stand a chance under the hot sun.

was dully thinking, how i would celebrate my 21st birthday .

i'll be alone in singapore, him in Paris, assuming we do continue .
how now?

this whole r/s is fraught with complications and heartache, yet i cant let him go
i mind the distance , yet i dun mind, because its HIM . special exception .. can he feel it ?
thinking about the night museum , how we met, when we met, where we met ..
just a dull ache in my heart, as i go about my chores and daily life.
is he thinking of what i'm thinking too? or about his parisian life?
can he feel it ?

den .. how can he bear to let me go ?
dun i mean much to him at all?

i never thought him to be a quitter. i think of myself as a quitter.. i do give up easily , but i can be freaking solid stubborn if i believe in something ..

why roxanne ,why ?
why are you so masochistic huh?

reached home, gonna be leaving in an hour's time ,for the wine tasting with my brother, more later.

Toh Wan Qin Roxanne

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