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Sunday, November 21, 2010
3:34 PM
after much deliberation, i've decided to resume this blog
heck the hiatus.
why m i making myself so miserable over this?
ok, so he doesnt like me as a girlfriend anymore
ok , so i've accepted that i will move on, and i will move on .
i wont wait for him for two years,
i cant bear to face the fact that whilst i'm still having feelings for him, he doesnt have any for me.
i cant face him while knowing that there might be no chance that he will like me more than a friend again if i continue like this
can you ? if you're me ?
why m i making myself so sad because he doesnt like me anymore.
move on gal
so masochistic.
i just need to wipe myself clean, clean my memories, devoid of him.
before i go to paris.
i dun want to get tangled in this sheet again.
i just want to get on with life.
whatever happens in the future is the future
to heck with it .. if if if .
if he wants me back after 2 years
then thats his problem
and thats my problem to think about in the future.
can anything possess less clarity than a relationship ?
you know unrequited love is like the saddest thing happening ?
and the worse part is , when you have had a taste of it, and you like it , and den you're left hanging in midair
cruel cruel cruel
if we had never had started, i wouldnt have minded so much.
if he wants a cordial r/s den so be it
this is not a life/ death issue
i dun need to let it affect my tests, sanity and my life
i mean, what is he ?
who is he ?
not my bf now isnt it ?
den i dun need to care.
why do i care so much
i just do whatever i need to do to resume living .
let the interruption stop here.
i've really had enough .
I'M SICK TO SHEET OF THIS MESS.