i'm finally flying
Friday, December 17, 2010
10:33 PM
it will be only 2 hours more when its 18th of December,
i'm flying ...
somehow i haven fully grasped this fact yet.
my luggage's packed, room's tidied.
my clothes for tomorrow laid out
my handbag filled w
ith snacks in the cabin .
somehow i cant grasp the fact that i'm meeting wayne again
what has it been ? 2 months?
it seems such a long time
so much things have happened.
i really don't know how i will react when i see him again.
photos, phone calls, sms are different
they feel more like a cyber buddy rather den someone real.
like someone distant in the background while i go about my life
someone virtual.
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when i bought the tickets in november .
i have this fantasy playing out in my head ,
one that will keep me smiling whenever i think of it ,
one that i think of almost everyday:
i'm coming out of the terminal
looking around, feeling lost, suddenly out of the corner of my eye,
an elegant figure in black.
eyes sparkling behind his glasses, striding towards me with arms held wide
that familiar smile
that should feel so good
a tight embrace, how i missed you
now...everything has changed.
i dun think this will ever happen which is why i'm typing this with tears in my eyes , still feeling sad after 1 month. ( do i dare hug him of my own accord? i want my dream to come true just so i can not regret this forever more, but when the moment's over its over. and even if i do act out of my own impulse, it will all be just in my own brain. nothing will happen , and nothing will come off it.)
it has been 1 month. how long and how short it felt !
i'm worried that my wound will tear open again.
i wish for a miracle
i pray for a miracle.
i'm worried
i'm stressed
i'm anxious
still at one deep corner, my heart has died.
i'm not wishing for anything
i'm trying not to expect anything.
let my parisian journey start now.
Toh Wan Qin Roxanne
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I love the color YELLOW, though i don't wear it.
I love clowns, frogs, polka dots, and whimisical brollies.
I love olden english, the Victorian era, and am a steampunk fan.
I love good architecture, classic designs, photography, and arts and craft.
I am a die hard Romantic and I love doing things with people I love.
It is my ambition to be a businesswoman , and my childhood dream to be an air stewarddess.
75% unpredictablilty 20% steadfastness, and 5% craziness
Hello. my name is (Roxanne),and this is my online diary.
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