:)

i need to thank God for giving me the opportunity to achieve so much :)

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on another random note:
i dun believe in not having something to say.
for eg, one of the " trials" i have faced while trying to stay in touch with wayne when we're still together.
sometimes i feel that when i ask him , how's your day, he wont have much to say.
sometimes i wont have much to say too when he asks me.
but actually when i stop to think about this.
so many things happen in one day.
lols, most of the time i wanted to say a lot of things, just that i know that he wont say a lot, thus, i dun feel like telling him a lot of things ... :(

perhaps cuz i was angry with him or something ..
sigh, i guess there's a lot of things i can learn to tolerate about wayne too .
if we ever had a chance again .. well, i dun know what will happen too, but this is one expermiment i'll like to try.

( note: i guess that's one of my mistakes. i never was good with differences in people. perhaps i'm too confident about my abilities and my own way of thinking and living that i " expect " others to conform to me in a way. just like wayne , i guess he never was someone who likes to express, not even half as much as me... lols, just small little things like that.

just like how we got together, i myself m more than ready for a serious relationship,even though it was a split second " love at first sight " leap, i ;m fully aware that if things work out, it might lead to marriage, i'm ok with everything, the pace, the structure. i was so confident things will turn out well. ( unlike my doomed second r/s)

but i missed out the fact that this is wayne's first r/s... just like the situation in which i tried going overseas without passport. for my third r/s, i was so preoccupied with getting myself ready, everything was perfect my side, i really never stopped to think that the problem might come from his side..i need to be more aware of this next time .

but one good thing i've learnt from this r/s , i've come out more confident of myself as a gf , as a female, in who i m, what i can achieve. and the random little good things about myself that i've never seen before, until i've seen them through wayne's eyes. i never thought i was reponsible, or that i could care for someone as much .i have to thank wayne for bringing that out .)

24 hrs, you cant be asleep for the whole duration unless you're ina coma.. even if you are slacking, you can describe the feel, the thoughts you had, the dreams you had.

sometimes i hate replying " oh my day is ok, how's yours ? " back , its so ... unfamiliar, like why m i so polite with my boyfriend? ok, ex now, so wells, that's what i was thinking .

lols, or maybe its just me ?? haha, i need to talk by nature.
doesnt mean i'm talkative, but i can say i'm quite expressive by nature. i find delight in sharing my thoughts, views, perceptions, emotions with my loved/closed ones, and find delight in hearing about how they view things also ... :(

in a nutshell, you can just say i like to talk.

i need someone whom i know i can talk to without feeling limited by him.

and who i know can share back with me too .
wa,listening to emo music now .. haha, better continue with my stats revision ...rar.. the subject which i love to hate most.
:(

exams please be over.. bangkok / norway trip please come.